I would be so nice to
end it all
there are so many ways to go about it too.
Its all very
interesting
to me. I think maybe I should try
sometime.
Thats because Izzy isnt next
to me.
I wish he was
here
with me so I wouldnt be so
alone.
I cant stand the emptyness
day to day
unchanging
boreing
dull
I hate it so much
yet I feel nothing
no one is here
not me
not Izzy
not you
no one
because on the inside
no one is really alive
I dont feel alive
I want to live
I want to feel alive
I wish I could just fly away
or dissapear
or have dreams come true
like a movie
but theres a reason they call it a
dream
its because it will never EVER
be real.
Nomatter how much I want it
it wont happen
I want to put the gun to my chest
but I cant
Swallow the pills
cant do that
stop breathing
cant
Izzy wont let me
even if he's not next to me
even if he's not real